Proof Of Existence

“May you find solace in the gentle arms of sleep despite the wolves outside your door. In time you will see them all as harmless and their idle threats easy to ignore.

As you drift into the gausy realm of dreams may you take comfort in the thought that you are safe. For it only takes a fraction of a second for all of this to change.

As you sink beneath the soothing streams of time may you be thankful that you’ve had another day. For there comes a time when each of us will enter a sleep from which we will never wake.

And if ever fate should choose to smite you. Stand your ground, never walk away. Please don’t ever let the world defeat you. Don’t get buried in it’s decay.

 Close your eyes now, if only for a moment. For it’s time you got some rest. The wolves are gone and nothing here can harm you. Let go of your fragile conciousness.

Return to me when slumber’s fog has lifted. Return to me. Stronger than before.

Raise your fists and crush eternity
In the name of all the suffering endured
When anger overtakes serenity
Restraint and limitation seem absurd

Never, goodbye.

Goodbye is forever.

There is..-always- a tomorrow.

Who are we, under the mask we shield ourselves with?

So yesterday was the 19 of September.

That morning, five years ago, something happened that changed my life forever.

This is just a remembrance.

I hope i’ve done good enough in the past few years.

Never fall in love on the internet.

Are we really alive, or just breathing?

Were we born to just sleep-walk through life?

Who knows.

Do you ever ask yourself; “What would the world around me be like if I didn’t exist?”

I just did.

It’s a scary thought.

Hey guise. Do I still have any readers? Time to fix that, eh?

So i’m finally done with High School. Or at least, I think it was High School…And hopefully my IGCSE doesn’t suck so bad that I need to resit. That would call for an heroism. Anyway, a whole lot of things have happened since i’ve last blogged, and reading that brings back the horrible memories. Well, no more! I figure this’ll be a really long one, so i’ll make a list of what i’ll write about. Bear with me, here.

1) Time after the strike.

2) Mocking the exams.

3) Resurrection and death.

4) Examining the mocks!

5) Boss battle! (IGCSE/ Level: O/ HP: >9000)

6) Puppies!

7) MOAR PUPPIES!

8) A new beast.

9) The Probrem with proms.

10) Goodbye.

11) The time after.

Yikes. I think i’ll finish this later.

It was a rainy day, it had been raining pretty much the whole week. I’d just finished watching a movie, and I was chatting with my brother, complaining about how my ipod was already on its way out, when like a rifle shot from the clouds, a bolt crashed right into home, casting the house house into darkness. I walked out of my room, stunned. I had knots emerging in my stomach, anxiety overcoming me. Direct hit with a thunderbolt usually equates to blown fuses, destroyed technology and technically a lot of grief. And I was right. I reset the fuse box and the lights flashed to life. I did a check. Astro, working. Tv, working. Modem, surprisingly working. Wireless, dead. I dashed up the stairs to my computer. The moment of truth. I hit the button on my monitor, it turned on. This’s a good sign. My speaker system was working as well. I punched the ON button on my CPU.

I pushed it again. And again. And again. It wouldn’t turn on. I flipped the switch at the back of the rig off and on, it still wouldn’t work.

My heart sank. My computer, everything, basically all my memories, gone. It took me years to accumulate my collections of music, images and stories. All gone. Mom sent the computer to the computer shop to get diagnosed. The people said it was just my power supply that got fried, so mom paid around RM200 to buy a new better one.

I got the machine back, but there were a few problems. The multitude of fans weren’t working, and when I finally managed to get it to boot up Windows, it immediately died.

It was then that I was certain, it was dead. I’m hoping that my graphics card’s still safe at least…

Anyway, it’s Chinese New Year, so Happy Chinese New Year!